Unquestionable faith and trust in our God. The ability to hold on and no matter what not letting go!
I don’t say that lightly, as it could be an easy glib response that just flows from the lips of well-meaning friends who have no real idea of the depths at which you have been, or still feel. The ability to hold onto faith and trust is nothing near easy; it is nail biting, knuckle whitening, breath holding, all-consuming, life and death hard work.
No matter the size or depth of the clouds, sunlight is always there, waiting, and when it breaks through the clouds its warmth and light sinks to the depths of our being. Our wholeness and healing comes in holding onto the promise that sunlight will come and the clouds will pass away.
Letting go has also meant learning to say no when demands get too high and learning to speak up and declare what I have been too scared to say in the past. Learning to ask for help instead of trying to do it all on my own, allowing others the blessing and the ability to learn responsibility instead of carrying it for them. Learning to slow down and take time to live instead of running on a perpetual treadmill, taking time to enjoy the warmth of the sun and the songs of the birds and the laughter of my children, savoring their hugs instead of rushing away.
Reaching that point of breakthrough is not easy, it always takes longer than we’d like and it often comes in a different way to what we imagine. We must be mindful also that although the sunlight breaks through the clouds, there may still be clouds to follow before we have blue skies. In those times we keep holding on, remembering the breakthrough has begun and freedom or healing or whatever we need is coming.
When our mind and emotions convict us we must cling to the faithfulness of our God.
Even when I couldn’t pray and reading his word seemed to fall on barren ground there was a ‘knowing’ He was near. That is what we hold on to. In time the prayers become easier as our heart calls out to Him and His word begins to fall on hungry ground.
God has the answers to our problems; He has our healing for He is bigger than any problem or illness. Trust can be hard when we find ourselves in the darkest of places, it takes courage to hold on but it comes.
Our heart and soul depends on our ability to trust God beyond all our thoughts, reasoning’s, pleadings, understanding and feelings. To trust that He has good plans for us and that although the journey is hard, even excruciatingly hard at times, He is growing us and we will rejoice at the other end.
Our life is a journey and often the hardest trails we trek lead to the most glorious oasis.
“The deeper the dark, the closer the dawn. However profound the suffering that envelopes you, never forget the inner spark of hope and courage. Never lose the capacity to wait with patient enduring.” (Words of Wisdom)
Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it. (Rabindranath Tagore)